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you can tie me to the bed
but I could probably get away
and you can tell me that i’m yours
but that don’t mean i’m gonna stay
or I could die here on my knees
but baby i’m the one to blame
‘cause I can’t lie
and I can’t leave
I don’t cry
she don’t bleed
you’ve convinced me that you’re clean
‘cause i’m the one who wears the bruises
and when you cry it’s not for me
‘cause all the pain don’t mean i’m losing
and you can ask me is this love
well where’d you learn a word like that
‘cause I can’t lie
and I can’t leave
I don’t cry
she don’t bleed
I, I, I'm living
All for you but now
I, I, i’m thinking
You gon’ be the death of me
I, I, I'm living
All for you but now
I, I, i’m thinking
You gon’ be the death of me
‘cause I can’t lie
and I can’t leave
I don’t cry
she don’t bleed
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fight the good fight
hit the bullseye
chase the bad guys
and shoot them down
climb the mountain
kill the dragon
and if you don’t win
steal the crown
keep your cinderella from the wrong hands
hold her body close enough to
squeeze and choke her pain, it’s the same
if you ask me
but nobody asked me
solid gold is only for the best man
everything below is for the
rest of them who can’t understand
that you bury
the girl that you marry
something ‘bout the way
that she calls you baby when you want
what’s the point of saying
she’ll keep you waiting when you won’t
heard she likes to gamble
then make it count
heard she likes to party
then keep it down
sew it up
shut your mouth
up and down
in and out
lock it up
keep it tight
fall in love
get it right
she’s a home run
a californian
and you’re the first one
to break her down
and like a good man
you use a strong hand
protect your girl and
keep her on the ground
keep your cinderella from the wrong hands
hold her body close enough to
squeeze and choke her pain, it’s the same
if you ask me
but nobody asked me
solid gold is only for the best man
everything below is for the
rest of them who can’t understand
that you bury
the girl that you marry
my god
isn’t she beautiful
painted like a baby doll
when she cries it turns you on
spinning on a carousel
drowning in a wishing well
and by midnight she’ll be gone
sew it up
shut your mouth
up and down
in and out
lock it up
keep it tight
fall in love
get it right
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do you still have my favorite book
the same one you took
with the dog ears and cup rings
that’s not worth a look
i swear i saw it in your car
on our way to the bar
under fast food and asked you
what was your favorite part
but you can’t have a favorite if you don’t know a thing
and i can’t even fight you if you’re not in the ring
i’m so sorry you’re mean
this is why we can never have nice things
‘cause if someone, anyone, could say no to you
it must be the last thing they’ll do
it must be the last thing they’ll do
don’t you think it’s sort of fucked
how new year’s eve was not enough
watching cartoons in your basement
while your boyfriend threw up
i must have known it even then
that secrets never make a friend
and could have and should have
are the same in my head
and it’s not like i said i don’t like what i’ve got
it’s more like i said you should be what you’re not
i’m so sorry you’re mean
this is why we can never have nice things
‘cause if someone, anyone, could say no to you
it must be the last thing they’ll do
it must be the last thing..
i ever want
to hear from you
with a cup of tea
and a shit excuse
did it hurt when you broke through from hell
blood stains
in the second snow
dead drunk
walking home alone
it feels like i’m hitting myself
it feels like you know me too well
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4. |
The Apology Song
03:36
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i wanna stick a knife in my ribcage
twist harder on the hilt ’til the bones break
‘cause i can’t afford to wait for the old age
let me be the one to call it off
i wanna feel the weight of my flesh drop
rip slowly down the seams ’til it falls off
‘cause i wanna float away while the skin rots
let me feel the wind inside of me
and i’m saddled with a strength of conviction
but i’m still too much a mess for addiction
and i know that’s not the best of depictions
but do you wanna settle down
do you want a family
‘cause baby if you get me with my back against the wall
i don’t think i’d hate it much at all
if we’re gonna share a life
i wanna be the first to die
i wanna feel my teeth on the blacktop
bite harder ’til the roots meet the asphalt
and i’ll spit and lick my lips ’til the blood stops
let me end up cleaner than before
i wanna draw a line with my best knife
trace up and down the length of my windpipe
start filling it with stones ’til it’s airtight
let me make my breath more permanent
and i’ve given you your fill of corrections
while hashing out our misplaced affections
but i’m misery in every direction
so do you wanna settle down
do you want a family
‘cause baby if you get me with my back against the wall
i don’t think i’d hate it much at all
if we’re gonna share a life
i wanna be the first to die
when i fall in love
if i ever do
i hope it lasts a while
i hope that it's with you
i'll always hold your hand
i'll always hold my tongue
and when we're with your friends
i'll swear that i had fun
i know your every move
even in the dark
and if that isn't love
i think that it's a start
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don’t you ever get bored
you’ve given up on the vegas weekends
traded in all the friends you’ve never liked
come on baby don’t lie
don’t you miss how the doors all opened
don’t you think it was fun not being mine
i remember your folks
mom and dad on the couch on friday
hell man that’s the way to live your life
but i’m a little too shy
i’m a little too stuck in my ways
i’m a little too scared you’ll change your mind
now you read the news
now i mow the lawn
no amount of crowded bars could ever get us out of our bed
wasted on the young
what’s it even mean
i remember we were 17 and i was
stone cold, bone dry, no lie
so in love with you
i wanna marry you now
buy a ranch for a million dollars
all our friends and a cake a mile high
but i’m a certified fool
i’m a child in a suit of armor
i’m a child who will love you your whole life
now you settled down
ain’t it such a shame
told ya you were made for me now you cannot get it out of your head
wasted on the young
what’s it even mean
i remember we were 17 and i was
stone cold, bone dry, no lie, tongue tied and
maybe
we’ll be
straightlaced
concrete but
you know
i’m no
grownup
hero i’m
fun and
dumb and
young and
so in love with you
now you settled down
ain’t it such a shame
told ya you were made for me now you cannot get it out of your goddamned head
wasted on the young
what’s it even mean
i remember breaking down your door to say that
nothing’s ever gonna change it
i was 17 but
you know
i know
we are
finally growing up
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i can’t pretend to know what swims beneath your skin
i don’t know when you sleep or where
i can’t begin to wonder where those/your hands have been
i don’t know what’s under your nails
i don’t care if it’s blood
i don’t care if it’s ink
i don’t care just leave whatever in my bathroom sink
if i get blood in your hair
if i get ink on your chest
i don’t care just wear whatever i think you look your best
but as much as i believe you’ll marry me
your body is the crowbar in between
what you need
loneliness and me
if you’re a man who makes a living in the mines
your wife’s no stranger to the stains
i make my money spilling blood in perfect lines
and you’re no stranger to my veins
i don’t care if it’s blood
i don’t care if it’s ink
i don’t care just leave whatever in my bathroom sink
if i get blood in your hair
if i get ink on your chest
i don’t care just wear whatever i think you look your best
but as much as i believe you’ll marry me
your body is the crowbar in between
what you need
loneliness and me
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i wanna feel you
under my fingers
if i keep drinking
will you come nearer/here
i wanna see you
outside my window
i wanna taste you
and the acid on your tongue
i wanna taste your
good intentions
i wanna hear you
when it turns midnight
i wanna keep you
you should be all mine
i want obsession
i want forever
i wanna touch you
i want my nerves to come undone
i wanna touch your
good intentions
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in a more perfect world
you own a million girls
all dressed in diamonds
who never say a word, out of turn but baby
i know your nightmare is a million silhouettes becoming one
i know exactly what they whisper as they’re reaching for your gun
drink up, take your medicine
and see if you can’t fall asleep again
And if you never wake
I pray your soul to take
And let the devil eat it, chew it up and defecate
And if there is a god
Maybe you have a shot
Maybe he'd love you just enough to let you play the dog
everyone’s a devil when the curtain falls
but everyone’s an angel when their mama calls
and oh no look at you go
you’ll never get to heaven if you die so slow
you are the stuff of dreams
marshmallow caramel creams
painted in poison
and wrapped up in a mold, a centerfold baby
am i the reason that you still believe there’s something in your drink
and after all this time you still possess the gall to say to me
drink up take your medicine
i’ll take it when you sober up again
everyone’s a devil when the curtain falls
but everyone’s an angel when their mama calls
and oh no look at you go
you’ll never get to heaven if you die so slow
no one ever wants to be alone with you
no one lets a wolf into the baby’s room
oh my look at the time
you’ll never get to heaven on a one track mind
every second is a test of virtue
when every minute is the best to hurt you
because you laugh, you cry
you sneeze, you sigh
they think that you’re a human but you’re dying inside
but you’re sick, you’re weak
you’re foul, you creak
like every bone is breaking from the years of deceit so
don’t act so holy
like you’re no machiavelli
you trick, you tease
you bite, you please
and everyone is begging for a suicide squeeze but
i am in your way
everyone’s a devil when the curtain falls
but everyone’s an angel when their mama calls
and oh no look at you go
you’ll never get to heaven if you die so slow
no one ever wants to be alone with you
no one lets a wolf into the baby’s room
oh my look at the time
you’ll never get to heaven on a one track mind
every second is a test of virtue
when every minute is the best to hurt you
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when you woke me in the morning and said you had to leave
i almost said i loved you but i turned the other cheek
you wouldn’t want to think of me as more than just a friend
i think about you constantly i guess we both pretend
ooooh
i think about you constantly i guess we both pretend
oooooh
you can keep on claiming that these lies don’t haunt your dreams
but i’ve been sleepless next to you and that’s the way it seems
i don’t think it’s assuming to say we’ve gotten close
but you act like i’m intruding that’s the thing that hurts the most
ooooh
you act like i’m intruding that’s the thing that hurts the most
ooooh
our love is sleeping in a coffin
comfortable and often i
forget that there’s a reason to open up
but the weight is getting heavy
i feel it more with every time
we tell ourselves that this is enough
it’s time we open up
won’t you tell me ‘bout your parents and the way you love them so
the way they hate each other and the way we take it slow
you tell me you’re experienced and kiss me on the neck
i try to hold your hand and you break into a sweat
ooooh
i hold you in the darkness, you break into a sweat
ooohhh
our love is sleeping in a coffin
comfortable and often i
forget that there’s a reason to open up
but the weight is getting heavy
i feel it more with every time
we tell ourselves that this is enough
it’s time we open up
i am not the kind of man
who kisses with his hand when he’s angry
dare me not to prove it to
you are not that kind of girl
you’re annoyingly assured when you’re angry
why then would you let yourself be
sleeping in a coffin
comfortable and often i
forget that there’s a reason to open up
but the weight is getting heavy
i feel it more with every time
we tell ourselves that this is enough
it’s time we open up
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10. |
Abigail
03:45
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how’d you get a stain on your dress
always playin’ in a bigger mess
and how’d you get a cut on your lip
always playin’ with the bigger kids
and i’m scared of what your mother might say
should’ve locked the gate
so tell me why you make ‘em so mad
hate to hear that it’s your bigger plan
oh there’s something in the water
something that i
swear tastes just like
abigail
do i have to feel like
everything reminds me of her
everything reminds me of the
same old goddamn bitterness
and the pain that settles in your chest
‘round her
why’d you have to settle so fast
secret’s out that now you want it bad
why’d you have to kiss him so well
always giving ‘em a harder sell
and why’d you have to let him inside
it gets the worst at night
why’d you find it hard to make friends
no one stays until the bitter end
oh there’s something in the water
something that i
swear tastes just like
abigail
do i have to feel like
everything reminds me of her
everything reminds me of the
same old goddamn bitterness
and the pain that settles in your chest
‘round her
oh there’s something in the water
something that i
swear i don’t believe in
how’d you never see him
oh my abigail
do i have to feel like
everything reminds me of her
everything reminds me of her
everything reminds me of her
everything reminds me of her
everything reminds me of her
everything reminds me of her
everything reminds
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the weatherman’s always wrong
yeah he said there’s sun on monday
bt he didn’t know you’d be gone
so it feels like rain on sunday
got no reason to believe in love
no one ever seems to give enough
had no clue what i was dreaming of
but he seemed like a good contender
caught him looking maybe once or twice
thought i’d hate him but he smelled so nice
didn’t ever wanna be his wife
but the bastard got me contemplatin’
picking up and rearrangin’
standing at the altar i’m still
waiting
waiting
because the weatherman’s always wrong
yeah he said there’s sun on monday
but he didn’t know you’d be gone
so it feels like rain ‘cause the weatherman is always
wrong
(yeah he’s always)
wrong
(why’s it so)
cold in the summer
i swear he’s always wrong
got no reason to believe in you
no one does the things they say they’ll do
that was something that i thought i knew
but boys can make a girl go crazy
really wish i wasn’t here right now
sister’s trying on her wedding gown
cousins comin’ in from out of town
the party’s in the backyard waitin’
everybody’s so frustrated
yeah we planned for sunshine but it’s
raining
raining
because the weatherman’s always wrong
yeah he said there’s sun on monday
but he didn’t know you’d be gone
so it feels like rain ‘cause the weatherman is always
wrong
(yeah he’s always)
wrong
(why’s it so)
cold in the summer
i swear he’s always wrong
before you walked out
i knew there was something wrong with you
like how you used to say synapse when you meant to say synopsis
i mean, you don’t have to actually be a neuroscientist to know what those two words mean, you shitty asshole
the weatherman’s always wrong
yeah he said there’s sun on monday
but he didn’t know you’d be gone
so it feels like rain ‘cause the weatherman is always
wrong
(yeah he’s always)
wrong
(why’s it so)
cold in the summer
(why’s it so)
cold in the summer
(why’s it so)
cold when you go
in the summer
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light in the hallway
the shadow of a face in the doorway
is anybody out there
i said is anybody out there
sure it’s a dead street
but now i think you’re happy to not speak
to anybody out there
i know you feel like no one’s out there
sleeping in the garden while you keep your mother waiting
is there something ‘bout the summer rain that makes you wanna cry
told me you were fine with all your lavender and wine
and now you’re turning off your light to find
that everybody tastes the same
did something get in your way
are you wondering why you came
are you wondering why you’re
smoking on a new year’s day
and what’s a good thing to say
when everyone’s gone away
and when you’re dressed up and
smoking on a new year’s
i am on your side
i am on your side
i will stay the night
i am on your side
say that you want me
even if you don’t wanna want me
and i’ll be on the next train
2:30 in the morning
and at any moment if you wanna ask
if i’m thinking of you the answer’s always yes
and i swear it’s true
it was always you
stay away from home until the winter and the snow
until the river’s frozen over and you’ve been alone for days
keep it to yourself until the winter feels like hell
until you wake yourself up yelling at the days that always end the same
did something get in your way
are you wondering why you came
are you wondering why you’re
smoking on a new year’s day
and what’s a good thing to say
when everyone’s gone away
and when you’re dressed up and
smoking on a new year’s
i am on your side
i am on your side
i will stay the night
i am on your side
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13. |
Sentimental
05:47
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i think i’m full of shit
but it’s all sentimental
i like my share of fear
but keep it soft and gentle
not like the words i use
mixed with a taste of hatred i don’t save for anybody else
i dream of empty streets
dark nights and cups of coffee
i dream of rolling hills
i hear her laughing softly
but there’s a pressing sense
that everything around me isn’t felt by anybody else
and if i’m out of line
won’t you take the blame
this is what i get for guessing at the words you won’t say
let our voices break
let us tear our way back home again
because i swear that there’s a reason for the awful things i say
no it’s not you
maybe one day
i’m gonna move away
and i’ll feel self important
i think i’ll starve myself
inside an old apartment
and when the time is right
i’ll send out invitations saying i no longer feel afraid
i’ll dream of neon lights
black eyes and good intentions
i’ll dream of hidden cards
of comforts never mentioned
but in my reasoning
i found a fatal flaw that says i’m born to live and die the same
and if i’m out of line
won’t you take the blame
this is what i get for guessing at the words you won’t say
let our voices break
let us tear our way back home again
because i swear that there’s a reason for the awful things i say
no it’s not you
maybe one day
i’m angry and i’m wounded
though the reason’s still unclear
all i know is that i’m suffering
and i don’t want you to hear
it’s like throwing pebbles at a mountain
shooting bullets in the sea
i’m a sad excuse for nature
so what’s your excuse for me
‘cause i don’t know how to hurt you
so i only hurt myself
although i think it makes you hate me
something i do all too well
but you’re the bruises on my knees
you’re the ringing in my ears
you’re the only days remembered
out of twenty some odd years
so here i stand
and here i stay
and here i’ll fall
but not today
‘cause i am strong
but you’re stronger still
and you don’t know that i’m your weakness
but you will
let our voices break
let us tear our way back home again
because i swear that there’s a reason for the awful things i say
no it’s not you
maybe one day
let us bleed it out
let the tears run down your face again
because i swear that there’s a reason for the awful things i say
i never would have chased you if you’d never run away
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Wolfy Los Angeles, California
songwriter/producer in love with great music, great people and destroying inefficient systems.
wolfysucks.com
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